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May 21st, 2005

04:43 pm
I have moved my Journal elsewhere......

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May 20th, 2005

05:19 pm - THE PLAY OWNS!
well i've got a splitting headache. for 2 reasons:

Dearest Greg Gilman got to slam my head into the stage floor a million times (or so it feels) for play practice this afternoon.The play is going to be hilarious. So much funny stuff. Lucy and i are having a blast doing the sound and helping with satge directions and such.

The other reason i have a headache is because of a certain boy. Who happens to be plaguing my heart again. Though i have darling jess to talk to. To which i am so thankful for.

I love you all SOOOOOOO much.

AP ENLISH next year is going to own!

Love: sammy-pie
Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: Mum- Grass Green of Tunnel

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May 19th, 2005

06:05 pm - Friend Post - X-posted in Xanga
It was last year around this time, if i remember correctly, that an entry such as the one, I will post below, was going around online journals. This entry is to my friends thanking you and sharing your best qualities, with EVERYONE. I will not use names, only referring to each one of my friends as "you". This is for all of you, each and everyone of my friends that have helped me grow, that have made my life more clear and for all the amazing things you do for me each day. I love you guys.

~You are an amazing friend, we've known each other since kindergarten and you have only gotten more sweet since then. You even let me call you crazy names, that make people think you are a druggie. You are so cool.

~You are quiet and good-natured. i'm not quite sure how we met all I know is that it was the best thing ever, You are one of my very best friends, and I'd do anything for you and vice versa. I love your fashion.

~You are an amazingly loyal friend. Though somethimes you get on my nerve with you careless disregard for the future, I love you nonetheless. You are spectacular. And I'll always be here for Riot Grrl talks.

~You are so much fun to be around. When I'm with you I'm never bored. We're always doing somthing crazy. I hope this never changes because you are ALWAYS there for me, even when I'm being stubborn. I like your rice.

~You have a way with me. No matter what the situation you can bring me back to reality with out breaking my heart in two. So many times I have sought comfort in you, and everytime, though I am hurting you find a way to help me. I love you completely.

~You are an amazing person. You make everything so light and bubbly. Your sheer energy and personality is awesome. I know We haven't known eachother for a long time, but you are a confidant. I can confide in you.

~You are frippin amazing. I remember just how we met, you were new in school and everyone thought you were a drug dealer, but no one wanted to mess with you, but I invited you to sit with me at lunch. You are so cool, you inspired me to so many things. To try new musical genres. Thanks, for everything, and acid rice.

~You are dear to me. So many memories of us together. Through studio, and choir, and middle school, and high school. My mom says hi. You are truely one in a million. I love you individuality. No one can play drums or braid my hair like you.

~You and I have been through a lot together. So much drama, and so many problems. My new year's eve would not have been the same if i hadn't spent the last 4 with you.

~You are so adorable. You make me smile, and laugh. You have this sweet child-like personality that just makes me adore you. No one drives liek you, either. Sorry about the sticky eyeball on your car.

~You are like a ray of sunshine. You are ALWAYS smiling, even if you are in a bad mood. I adore that quality. you make me smile. You help me see just what i need to do, when i lose track of reality.

~You and I haven't known eachother long, let along been riends that long. but we see eye to eye. You are wise beyond your years. And your faith inspires me.

~You and I we so close we practically lived at eachother's houses. But people grow apart, I'm glad we're still friends, even if we aren't as close as we once were.

~You and I make an odd pair. We often think in completely opposite directions, our goals are different, but we still stay friends. Which amazes me.

~You and I were in girl scout together, and boy were those times! but we're still friends and I'm glad you come to me for advice, it helps you and me.

~You and I have always been friends, but it's fun having classes with you. Oh, by the way, you need to shush about certain people of the male persuasion.

~You are such a cool guy. Seriously, not many people would walk as far as you did just for friends. I appreciate how awesome you are, and how good of a friend you are. I'm gonna miss you when Youth Group is over. So we'll have to hang. Creation will be spectacular.

~You are quiet, and sweet. You are a ton of fun to be around, and you always I've me someone to talk to, even if I'm just babbling.

~You are my crazy x-women. I will gladly call you whatever you'd like me to, as long as I can where your left glove every once in a while. You and I have done so much together. All those fun times will not be forgotten. And I'm glad I could fulfill the promise of taking you to my junior prom.

~~You, oh, you are absolutely amazing. I can never stay mad at you, EVER. You are one of my best friends, though I have my fears, I don't want to lose you like last time, this is my second chance. If I lose you again, I may never get my best friend back, ever. We have been through so much shit, and it's amazing how strong and weak we can both be in our own instances. I'm glad I have you back in my life. I really am. Oh, and PETA is not better than you are.

So that is the update. I love all of my friends dearly.

Some dance to rememebr, so dance to forget.

Like a lovely atomic bomb: Sammy-pie
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Jets to brazil - Sweet Avenue

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May 17th, 2005

02:44 pm - Sweet Avenue
I guess an update is in order.

Things have been quite the mess lately. People are to dramatic and have too much conflict. Anyhow, My weekend was amazing, as they usually are. Carin helped with some moving issues. Jess and her friend Gabe dropped by, Very kool people these friends of mine. Saturday did a lot of driving, and finished the deck, saturday night fawn was here for a time. Sunday i got blue/gray chucks and bright blue converse track shoesies!

School sux as always.

I'll finish this post someother time.

Outtie: Sammy
Current Music: Operation Ivy- Bombshell

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May 9th, 2005

07:53 pm
To him:

How can i say this... One sweet dance was all i wanted. To dance cheek to cheek with you and let everything go. To be in your arms just feels so nice, so right. But that's not how it goes. Can't you see?! I'm not like them, i'll never break your heart. But I'll let you break mine. Infact it's happened before. I hate myself so much right now. I'm obviously not beautful like they are, Or gorgeous like her. I guess i'll never be. I'll just be here the one with the good advice. I don't want to be me anymore. I want to be your girl. I'm so tired of being alone. I like the way you make me feel. You just can't see what's right at the end of your nose. I stand infront of you everyday. Willingly giving you the glass shard of my already broken heart. I'm here, i cry from inside. I like it when you tell me i'm pretty, but you think she's gorgeous. You couldn't even say that i looked good at prom. I fall in her shadow, I am lost in her radiance. I will never be able to impress you, with anything I have to offer, but i stay, by your side faithfully. Giving you the help, support and guidance you need. Everyday could be my fond farewell to you, everyday i feel like i can't take anymore, but everyday I come back, only to go home with a heavy heart, knowing I'll never be the apple of your eye, cause I'm just a fallen, bruised apple. It all hurts so much, and feels so good. It's confusing to the point of insanity, but it's not as simple as stop waiting for you, it's not, cause you aren't an ordinary guy, and I'm a horrible hopeless romantic. One dance, that's all I asked, but she was free, and I fell to her again.

Love Always,
Your Bedtime Bear
Current Mood: brokeded
Current Music: Mum- Grass Green of Tunnel

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July 30th, 2004

09:56 am - this corpse is not a corpse only a shell of my former self
i can't remember the last time i updated i think it was tuesday but heh like it even matters. wednesday was insane, i ended up being late to mav's house we had to go like 7 different places, but we finally went and got food, sowe sstopped at the dollar store near the pizza place and we picked up hot little ninja toys(mask included) and we took some really funny pictures. so we ended up making mav a Vf profile so i actually have 2 ppl on VF that i ctually see and speak to frequently. rawr here comes the pain. Kyle promised me he would come to mav's right after work thursday morning so that i could see him and spend some time with him, since i haven't seen him since april's party. well mav and i and mav's lil sis were up at 7 dressed and cleaned, i walked out mav's drive way and sat by the side of the road waiting.... i waited for 30 mins before mav came out we waited another 30 mins... he never showed... why does it always happen to me? why can't i just stick with being the way i am instead of being this damn flirtacious me. rawr, well mav and i went in a bakd the cake and decorated the basement and wrapped presents, and then decorated the cake, chrisitne showed up and we went and wrapped her present... word of the wise, spray glue is a necessity when wrapping present ;). well jen showed up and we had an awesome time, the party was so much fun, yeah that's it.

//how much do i miss your smile remember it's really not all my fault.//

Current Mood: groggygroggy
Current Music: El toro

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July 26th, 2004

09:16 pm - Hmm....again with the poetry
stop telling me lies
there is no such thing as paradise
no perfect place
no loving race
there is no place
stop lieing to me
stop leading me in the wrong direction
let me go
let me leave this place
i'm the only one trapped in this hell
sometimes it's like time stops
and i get trappe din your eyes
these shackles of your flesh control me they bring me to my knees
i must break free
and leave this place
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Fukai Mori

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12:56 pm - If this is death i'll welcome it with open arms
Which of the bold faced lies will we use?
'I hope that you're happy, you really deserve it,
this will be the best for us both in the end.'

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve...
I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude, but it will do.

So which of the standard lines will we use?
'I've been meaning to call you. I've just been so busy.
We'll catch up soon.
Let's make it a point to.'

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve...
I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude, but it will do.

but It will do...
I hope it will do...

i'm a on a dashboard confessional kick right now earlir it was alexisonfire, what a rip from hardcore to accoustic... i'm so bored, i almost got killed by my vacume.such insanity i posses at times.

//where will my broken heart lead me when it hears of your unfortunate death?//
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Standard Lines- DC

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July 12th, 2004

01:14 pm - fairies, metallica, beasts, and many more
well this has already been one crazy day and it's only 1. my weekend

Friday: Mava called @ like 7-ish! rawr. she was there by 8, we went to the coopersburg diner, and back to her house, chilled around until 2 we packed the bronco and left for knobles. a 2 hour road trip later, we arrived and i met the "gang" matthew (tinkerbell!!), big tommy, tommy, lil tommy, andy, jess, and all the others. So many friendly ppl. we set up the tent, and went to the park, it was crazy fun, and 10 we missed the "bus" and had to walk back to the sites, it wa slike 1.5 miles... (ick) we sat around until midnight or so playing cards and talking.

Saturday: Woke up, went to the park, had really large amounts of fun, i told mav the bob situation, saw some cute guys not too cute, we went shopping, and yeah we had stalkers, damn those guys were cute, well anyhow, we went back to camp, and sat around, went back later, got split up saw cool guy with mowhawk turned out to be a freakin jerl, had salt and vinegar fries and a pickles on a stick!!! to camp @ like 10:30, we sat around the campfire, and were really mesed, up the camper sneezed, and matt was a fairy, lol, went to bed at like 2:30-ish.

Sunday: woke up cleaned up camp, took pictures, drove home, unpacked bronco, went home, unloaded stuff, cleaned my room, came online, found out sammy is mad at me.

so that's about it...

sammy: i'm sorry babe, you know how much i care about you.

ok on my way again.... bye

*kiss* sam
Current Mood: soaking freakin wet
Current Music: Coheed and Cambria Second Stage Turbine Blade

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June 5th, 2004

10:59 am - he keeps a puppet string to my heart
ok... one week of school left... precisely two days of classes and 2 1/2 of finals.... i've been talking to bryan lately that's cool ((makes me really happy)) yea well cass and c-tine and nicole came over last nite, we went swimming and the water was freezing, the we listened to coheed and cambria it's raining today so no skating for ian i may actually get to talk to him if he doesn't hafta work.... i may be going to a skillet concert tomorrow nite!!! Cass is a genius or fate's on my said to go to this show... chris and i figured out somthing really freaky... we already have met! we were both at fall out and we both hung out with Lindsay! freaky. yea well... i'm going to go swimming in a huge bowl of cereal until kevin wakes up...

Current Mood: groggygroggy
Current Music: hairspray- nirvana

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